New Day, New Year.

So, I decided to have a "come to Jesus" meeting with myself and center myself and make myself realize why I took on all of these endeavors. So, I listed a few reasons of why I'm doing all of this:

• One, to retire. I want to be able to do something different other than what I've been doing to make a living that make about the same. I don't want to experience "care fatigue" and "empathy fatigue" in my 60s.
• Two, to have different marketable skills. It may hard to get hired, but it's easy to get recognized. As in, list what's relevant to the job and move-on. Experience trumps intimidation.
• Three, so I can work for myself in my old age. I don't want to be out here doing the same thing over and over, again, and get bored to death. It ain't worth it.
• Four, to save my future family time and money. If I already have the skills and network, I would know where to look and how to handle things, appropriately. I can also tell if my family is getting shitted or not (I said what I said).
• Five, to eventually earn passive income. I know what I want to earn passive income doing a lot of things, and, from the research that I'm doing, we're almost there.

So, I decided I'm gonna complete this MBA & BSN, RN. Whether I graduate from both schools at the same time, who cares? As long I get them, right? So far, I'm pursuing marketable certifications that are niche and hard to accomplish without certain backgrounds. Me having to stay home for a year let me pursue my educational goals while building plans that can eventually last for a lifetime if executed right. At the age of 36, I took for granted how easily it was for me to get hired, not realized, the mental stress, anxiety, and issues I had with my health. 

My most recent career is stressing me out because I never took the time to truly dedicate myself to going back to school. I have been unmotivated to do these classes due to finances, but, then, I realized, maybe that's why all of this happened: I need an equal balance to everything in my life. Not just money. Not just love. Not just time. Not just self-care. I need to truly balance-out everything to be happy.

At times, I'm amazed I got this far with an idea that started as something so far. It has grown as the year has gone on. I officially listed the certifications I'm pursuing and want and aligned them what seems to be goals which is some typa insurance career. I believe I'm interested in insurance and finances. It's crazy, because, back in the day, I sucked in math and wasn't confident. After running a business and balancing different types of finances, it comes easily. As far as my Nurse Practitioner dreams, I can see me doing telehealth if it gets that far. I don't think I'd want to work in another building. PERIODT. I am so tired of people. I miss socializing on the job, but, what I don't miss is the drama and how people try you. They try you online, but, you ain't in their space, so, when I hit that power-button, you no longer exist, lol. & If you got my number, it ain't nothing to put you on a list or to do a DND or even a block. It's lovely being here in this space.

So, I definitely want to insurance and even possibly travel as a NP for a short-stint and do the rest of my career as telehealth after locum tenens. The rest will be just side-income and I can just do what I want to do for the rest of my years. I'm proud of myself because I spend some time in discovery time research and actually pursuing all the licenses and career certifications I want. 

I'm not interested in love, right now. I'm interested in trying to get to know myself, better, while building the live I want to actually enjoy, not just work everyday. I'm realizing, I don't like working everyday, but, I want to make a salary that supports my lifestyle. I also want to be able to have health benefits while trying to having a life. It's hard to find that balance and that niche, but, I promise you, once I find it, it's gonna be hard for me to stay out of it.

The most I'm gonna be updating is my blog, which is not gonna be often because I have so much going on. Not only that, I need a break from the internet. I can't wait to pay for this vacation next year. I'm looking at possible travel-assignments and I need the privacy that that provides. I just don't know how I feel about the stress you undergo to do it.

I'm looking for my "career sweetspot". That's so hard to do, but, I'ma gonna find it, eventually, and when I do, I can finally turn this blog into what I want (maybe).

We'll see.

I gotta go. I want to finish this part of my training and, then, go to bed. I have work in the morning. I hate that this is a customer service job and doesn't have the day after Christmas off. Ughn. 😑😠

Anywho, I'm out.

💗,

Sapph